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Title: Days go by (900 words)
Fandom: due South
Summary: For reasons that do not need exploring at this juncture, Ray has suddenly become his fifteen year old self.
Pairing: Fraser/RayK
Rating: All ages
Notes: This is as completely Te's fault as anything I've written. She made sure it made a modicum of sense outside my head.


"Holy shit," Ray says, running his hand over the GTO's hood. "And this is mine?"

Fraser nods, watching him -- his wrists are slim and unbraceleted, his hair a different sort of strange from what Fraser has come to expect in him, and he has a breathless quality that has everything to do with being, by all appearances and Ray's own account, fifteen. "Though I believe, by local laws, you're not qualified to drive it at this point."

"Damn." Ray whistles softly. "And you're a --" he smirks "-- Mountie, so you're not going to let me get away with it?"

"That's my job, yes." Fraser pats Ray's shoulder.

He vibrates. Crackles. There's more energy in him now than normal -- though Fraser would have said that was improbable -- and it comes boiling out of him in all directions. "Damn." Ray's grin is the only thing about him that has not changed, charming and reckless all at once. "You sure about that?"

Fraser has been pretending that he does not want to kiss Ray for the last four months.

It is not impossible to pretend it now, but it is no easier than any other day. Ray's wiry strength and the charisma that it does not seem possible that anyone could fit in such a lanky form -- he takes a deep breath. "Yes. Please take the passenger seat."

Diefenbaker nudges Ray's hand when he hesitates; Ray scratches the top of his head automatically. "Yeah, okay. It'd be a damn crime to scratch this beauty up."

The possibility that Fraser might be the one to cause it damage is not out of the question, but he doesn't say as much to Ray.

In the confined space of the car, Ray is more fidgety than ever. "Man," he says at the second red light, "you should've let me drive. We'd be there by now." He taps his fingers on his knees, then on the door. "I can't just watch you, man, do you always drive like this?"

"Often." Fraser keeps his eyes firmly on the road, though he can hear Ray shifting from side to side. "Really, Ray, you need to remember that the journey is as important as the destination. There's an Inuit story in which --"

"A what story?" Ray's incredulity is not his normal brush-off; it sounds more like real confusion than Ray -- the Ray Fraser knows -- would admit to.

"A native people of northern Canada."

"Right." Ray sits back in his seat, resettling for the fourth time in two blocks. "And in this -- northern Canadia people thing story, what happens?"

Fraser reminds himself again that this is not Ray, and that losing his temper will only make matters more difficult. "There's a journey and an impatient boy. The boy gets lost."

"Oh, hell no." Ray shakes his head. "I heard that one from the priest, not from some frozen guy in an igloo. I don't need it from you." He crosses his arms and stares out the window, still in sulkiness for the space of several breaths.

It does not give Fraser sufficient time to compose himself properly before Ray says, "Does it all come out in the end because of the saving power of Jesus and Mary, or does everyone freeze to death?"

Fraser swallows a laugh before he answers. "The boy freezes to death and is reborn as a caribou. At that point he learns to follow known paths."

Ray makes a face that suggests he has tasted something thoroughly disgusting. "Known paths? Jesus. You *must* be over thirty."

There have been various occasions in Fraser's life when he wished he could stop himself from blushing. This is another one. "Well. Yes." He is more than twice Ray's age.

He glances at Ray, who is grinning at him, and reminds himself again of that with the sort of force he has occasionally used to tell himself that Victoria Metcalf is a raging psychopath, that Ray Vecchio did not choose to leave, and that duty is more important than happiness.

He keeps his eyes on the road for five deep breaths while Ray laughs at him for being old, as if that is the biggest wall they have ever had between them.

It would be easier if Ray were still himself -- or so Fraser tells himself.

There will be a way to make things better, to make Ray return to his normal state.

And if there is not --

Ray wolfwhistles, piercingly, at a stop sign.

Fraser turns and sees a blonde woman, maybe twenty, in embarrassingly tight clothing. She looks nothing at all like Stella. "Do you have a girlfriend?" Fraser asks, which is easier than chiding him.

Ray stares at him with the fear of someone who took ten solid minutes, a newspaper, and a walk around the block to grasp the concept of temporal displacement. "Nope."

Fraser raises his eyebrows and does not mention how deeply he believes Ray is lying. "Ah."

"There's this girl --" Ray rubs the back of his neck "-- but she's not my girl, if you know what I mean. Just --" he shrugs down into his seat further. "Never mind."

"Consider it done." Fraser lets out a breath as silently as he can; it helps his sense of continuity that in this moment, as in all other ones, Ray's romantic attention is diverted by mere allusion to Stella.

Would that he had such an obsession with someone whose existence could distract him from Ray.


Continued in A single thing we couldn't do

Date: 2008-12-16 01:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thete1.livejournal.com
There have been various occasions in Fraser's life when he wished he could stop himself from blushing. This is another one. "Well. Yes." He is twice Ray's age.

Oh... Petra. This remains my favorite line, because it's so quietly, carefully *filthy*. There's so *much* dirty porn swirling under the surface of this one that I'm just a little *breathless*.

Best use of your lovely brain in at least one hour!

Date: 2008-12-16 02:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Benton Fraser is so very good at pretending he doesn't want the things he wants that I feel certain that he will survive this, too.

Possibly without completely losing his shit. (Does it help that his father would make Such A Face?)

You are such a bad influence, dear heart.

Date: 2008-12-16 05:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] browngirl.livejournal.com
O Te of Tes, if I had time, I could sit down and write a little essays about all the ways I can see that this story is exquisitely your fault. Never mind all the ways I must have missed!

Date: 2008-12-16 11:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thete1.livejournal.com
*ehehehee* It actually came from a *dream* I had. In which my dream self was trying to *convince* Fraser to hit it with young Ray. *shakes head* My imagination is *special*.

Date: 2008-12-16 02:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] askmehow.livejournal.com
Oh, man. I love this so very much, I can't even tell you. Just... Ray, and his obsession with Stella at any age, and Fraser. The perfect amount of yearning and duty and everything.

[...] and reminds himself again of that with the sort of force he has occasionally used to tell himself that Victoria Metcalf is a raging psychopath, that Ray Vecchio did not choose to leave, and that duty is more important than happiness.
Oh, Fraser.

Big sparkly hearts wouldn't even do justice to how much I love it.

Date: 2008-12-16 02:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
The drive to figure out why they aren't doing it is a rough one in this fandom. I mean, honestly, why *not*?

But yes, this story. Oh, Fraser. So much yearn, and so much control, except when it all goes away.

If Ray isn't himself again before Fraser snaps, interesting though not necessarily good effects might well abound.

Date: 2008-12-16 02:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] askmehow.livejournal.com
Is... is there going to be more? Dare I hope? (See, now you've got me yearning. Dammit!)

But yes. This is one of the few fandoms where they not only pass the broccoli test, but it's very, very hard to see why they wouldn't be together, especially by the end.

Date: 2008-12-16 02:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Um. Uh.

Probably just in my head (and Fraser's) because however clearly I can see it, I can't believe it of him.

Date: 2008-12-16 02:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] askmehow.livejournal.com
Okay, clearly Te's got this handled. If not, I'll be more than happy to instigate encourage you. What's going on in Fraser's head? Why's Ray fifteen? People want to knoooooow... :D

Date: 2008-12-16 02:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
a) Porn.

b) Because porn.

That's about the size of it.

Date: 2008-12-16 02:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] askmehow.livejournal.com
:D

Also?

That's about the size of it.
Yeah, I went to the puerile place. I am not ashamed! Okay, not VERY ashamed.

Date: 2008-12-16 07:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] iesika.livejournal.com
But what if Ray jumps him?

Date: 2008-12-17 01:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Then Fraser will be Very Conflicted.

One might almost say screwed.

Date: 2008-12-16 02:14 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] goss.livejournal.com
EEE! One of my fave kinks. This was delightful, indeed. :D

Date: 2008-12-16 02:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Timewarp or ephebephilic yearning? Inquiring minds want to know. ;)

Date: 2008-12-16 02:32 am (UTC)
ext_11942: (Default)
From: [identity profile] goss.livejournal.com
Lol. Er..yes to both? *blush*

Date: 2008-12-16 02:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Hey, I wrote it. I support you.

Date: 2008-12-16 02:25 am (UTC)
axiom_of_stripe: DC Comics: Kory cries "X'Hal!" (Default)
From: [personal profile] axiom_of_stripe
LOVE YOU.

Date: 2008-12-16 02:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Right back atcha.

Date: 2008-12-16 03:20 am (UTC)
jadelennox: Senora Sabasa Garcia, by Goya (Default)
From: [personal profile] jadelennox
Dude, this is heartbreaking. Young Ray, Stella, and *Fraser*.

He glances at Ray, who is grinning at him, and reminds himself again of that with the sort of force he has occasionally used to tell himself that Victoria Metcalf is a raging psychopath, that Ray Vecchio did not choose to leave, and that duty is more important than happiness.

*cries*

Date: 2008-12-16 11:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Your interpretation is the one Fraser is clinging to with both hands and his teeth. What a horrible thing this is! What a mess.

He's not enjoying it in the slightest. No hope. None. Not a tiny bit.

(Except for how there is.)

Date: 2008-12-16 03:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] deconcentrate.livejournal.com
I am so massively ENTERTAINED and yet HORRIFIED, I can't even.

I'm not sure who I fear for in this story more.

Te's right; this is absolutely filthy in its innocence. And innocent in its filthiness.

My god.

*stunned*

Date: 2008-12-16 11:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
I think Fraser's ability to recover from doing what he keeps saying he's not going to do is somewhat less than Ray's, even when Ray is young and bendy malleable.

But -- yes.

Date: 2008-12-16 05:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] browngirl.livejournal.com
Bendy!

BENDY!

BENDY!!!

Oh my God woman. I had a whole comment and stuff, and you knocked it clean out of my head with the word 'bendy'. O, this is fility filthy porn.

Date: 2008-12-17 01:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Malleable. I said malleable!

And yes. Yes, it really, really is.

Date: 2008-12-16 03:36 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] giglet.livejournal.com
Oh, young Ray! (And poor, poor ancient and besotted Fraser!

Now I want fanfic adventures of young Ray!

Date: 2008-12-16 11:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Ancient! *bwee*

I believe the fanfic adventures of young Ray in my head do not pass go, do not collect $200, but instead go directly to smut.

Which is why I stopped there, because Fraser finds the concept offputting as well as delicious, kind of like sashimi.

Woah. All wrong, yet. Right. Eee.

Date: 2008-12-16 03:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] reilael.livejournal.com
Oh! Oh oh oh! What's happened? What will happen?

Re: Woah. All wrong, yet. Right. Eee.

Date: 2008-12-16 11:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
a) Something that made Ray weirdly young.

b) Whatever Fraser can't prevent.

I'm glad it made your brain ping.

Date: 2008-12-16 04:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] leftarrow.livejournal.com
ok, I guiltily confess that I'm not even in this fandom.

But this. . .

"Does it all come out in the end because of the saving power of Jesus and Mary, or does everyone freeze to death?"

is by far the best line I've read for MONTHS.

Date: 2008-12-16 11:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Aw, thank you.

RayK is usually ~35, if that helps. And yes, his name *is* Stanley Kowalski. But that's not my fault.

Date: 2008-12-16 04:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] the-legion2012.livejournal.com
shit, i miss these characters so much that even mention of diefenbaker made me mist up!!! gorgeously written, and i must have come in the middle of something because ray k fell in a lazarus pit somewhere along the way? lol *goes looking*

Date: 2008-12-16 11:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Awww. There is plenty of dS fiction out there -- try [livejournal.com profile] ds_noticeboard just for starters. You don't need to miss them this hard.

I left the timewarp out; it was definitely Something, but not a Lazarus Pit. This isn't Ray-turned-young, it's Young Ray.

Thanks for the feedback!

Date: 2008-12-16 06:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pearl-o.livejournal.com
This is the first ds I've read in ages and ages, and it's amazing. *___*

Date: 2008-12-16 11:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Oh, what a lovely compliment. Thank you!

Date: 2008-12-16 06:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] shadowvalkyrie.livejournal.com
Hilarious! And so under the surface filthy... (Guilt by association with DCU stories in a similar vein, I guess. Or perhaps it's the car. *g*) But awwwww, the ending! *huggles poor Fraser*

Date: 2008-12-16 11:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Cars are the best place for Fraser to ogle Ray. dS has taught me this over and over again.

And he's yearning. Yeaaarning.

Poor, poor Fraser. Life is hard.

Date: 2008-12-16 06:52 am (UTC)
sage: Still of Natasha Romanova from Iron Man 2 (Default)
From: [personal profile] sage
OMG, Petra! *adores madly*

And 15 yr old RayK, sitting within armsreach of the hottest guy he's ever seen? Yeah, he can't sit still because of the giant hard-on in his pants -- the one Fraser can't let himself notice lest he lose all control whatsoever.

Maybe Te will write this for us? Or maybe we'll all just sit back and watch Fraser *yearn*.

Also, hi, once I write my Yuletide fic (which ought to be vastly easier than my DSSS story), I will be SUCH a willing audience for the contents of your brain. I cannot wait!

Date: 2008-12-16 11:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
It's entirely possible that Ray didn't even think he *liked* guys like that (because Bowie doesn't count).

Corn-fed, all-Canadian PRETTY -- well, who wouldn't be distracted?

I think we concur.

I look forward to your stories and audience a great deal. Good luck with the writing process!

Date: 2008-12-16 07:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lomedet.livejournal.com
oh, Fraser. This made my heart hurt for him even more than it usually does. Also, while I firmly believe that Doing Anything About It would irretrievably break Fraser, I can't help but think that 15 year old Ray might, on some level, be really good for him.

Date: 2008-12-16 11:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Aw, I'm sorry.

I think it would break him in ways he can't quite fathom coming back from, poor soul, but he'd have a jolly old time of it along the way.

In most cases, I'd say something about how sex is excellent exercise, but I don't think Fraser needs more. He just needs the affection, and I expect Ray's good at that, too.

Date: 2008-12-16 08:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
Oh, this is just too good. Please tell me there's more of this bubbling away somewhere?

Date: 2008-12-17 01:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Only in my id nope.

Date: 2008-12-27 10:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] snarkyducky.livejournal.com
i love and read your Bruce/Dick stories, and i love and read your F/K stories.. so i couldn't read this one without thinking of the particular sweetness your style invokes.. OM NOM NOM..
i luuuuuuurve this story! thank you for sharing this gem ♥
:D

Date: 2009-01-02 12:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
This is definitely what happens when the kinks from the former run into the latter. Thank you for the lovely feedback!

Date: 2009-01-07 12:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cyberducks.livejournal.com
This was just recced on ds rec finders and gah! poor Fraser, what a position to be in, it's an emotional lose lose situation all the way around for him.

Very well written, but I am very glad I am not Fraser in this instance, and I often wanted to be Fraser.

Date: 2009-01-07 02:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
I agree; I don't want to be Fraser here at all.

Date: 2009-01-13 05:29 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] primroseburrows.livejournal.com
...and reminds himself again of that with the sort of force he has occasionally used to tell himself that Victoria Metcalf is a raging psychopath, that Ray Vecchio did not choose to leave, and that duty is more important than happiness.



I love the whole story, but this line? Is Fraser, in a nutshell.

Date: 2009-01-14 02:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
Awww, thank you!

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